Fourteen Years

I felt something

For the very first time

Flames ablazed inside

For the one over there

I was just a kid

Us getting married

Three story home, six kids I’d carry

But that’s just a fantasy

Three years pining

One last goodbye

Left there crying

So now I

Will curse the faultless

Thinking I can’t love again

Life goes on, I’ll rot

Gave it my best shot

Battle wounds don’t heal

Scorched in embers, now I’ve got chills

New seats, new place

Rosy cheeks, elven face

Could only see them weekdays

But I wanted their weekends

And forevermore

Four years, gave it my everything

Tongue-tied, left with nothing

They painted my life in neon

But with a stroke of bad luck

Spring by the coast

I knew it’d rain

Making the skies my foe

Because it’s pouring anyway

Drunken confessions

A moment’s desperation

My ceaseless tragedy

Their senseless comedy

A pair of broken wings, time flies

Whatever the winds bring, pass me by

Locked houses, none my home

Feeling lonely, not alone

But I will never love again

Local supermarket, two black shirts

Gentle hands, a beguiling smirk

Rocking the boat,

Moving me along

Nightmares feel like dreams

My mind sinks to the sea

But they always pull me in

To their arms, by the trees

Where they go, is where I’ll be

Fear builds up

Different colours, same shapes

They could sing lullabies

I still see the monsters hiding

Their the most cosmic love

Like shooting stars above,

Like seeing auroras in summer

Couldn’t be another

Now the pastels turn grey

Banking on the hope you’d stay

Too good to be true

Nothing else I can do

Going broke on the same slot

Fourteen years over

“Give love another shot

Your soulmates a little closer”

Said the casino to my fragmented heart

I can love again

But I’d rather burn the veil

Wanting this to end

Can’t afford to fail

Just a mosaic of

All those I’ve loved

Like this was all in vein

I don’t wanna love again