Jelly Baby

Just a school girl crush

a new feeling

and i became too much

so you started fleeing

i’d stare from afar

your jet black hair,

and the way you’d run and trip

you, the team midfielder.

and you always knew,

so did everyone.

you were always running

and i was always chasing

the fuss those crowds made

about the foolish girl

who made a mess

and spouted nonsense.

i’d always cry,

you would squirm.

because how do you stay kind and true?

you don’t know,

so you became the villain.

distance began to take you,

so i prayed for you to stay,

you smiled at me,

one last time,

so i cursed your name.

you set off fireworks

over my tiny village

dazzling me with your brightest colours

only to leave me in ashes.

seasons went and go by,

i’ve become a ghost, lost in time.

i wanted to fix this,

i never knew how to fix this,

i could never fix this.

in my despair,

i found hope

in a vibrant red rose,

that blooms by my graveyard.

sometimes i have dreams

of those i love leaving,

and i find you, smiling,

cold, dark eyes that mock me,

because you left first,

that is your legacy.

now i don’t think about you,

except when i remember,

who centred my universe

when i was young,

and i reminisce of someone,

shufflin’ in blue kicks.

so i watch your life, somedays,

on a small screen,

the right girl,

living the white gown dreams

of a manic tween.

and with each new lover

that succeeds you,

the hole you buried

becomes deeper.

you in your dc2

driving down the right roads,

as i become dust in your memory

you’re getting older,

and i never Learn