NUHA (THE PROTAGONIST)

I have discovered a drought

when I was once flooded

with invitations and dinner plans.

My age arrived alone again.

Meeting my quarter life

where youth should be ripe.

Too old to be a debutante.

But too young for solitude to taunt.

My lover, you are

in the arms of another.

A life that should’ve been mine

but nothing is ever mine.

Another outing, I follow along.

A sister and her kids.

A brother and his wife.

A friend’s budding career.

I’m a star in their galaxy.

Six years since graduation

but time may as well

have frozen over then and there

because either way

I’m exactly the same.

So I pack my bags,

step through that door.

An old dormhouse,

better I do this now

than wait forever

Never-changing.

And hey lover,

it’s you I told first

that I’m moving away.

Your look of pride

as I leave your line of sight.

But you’re my dearest friend

wish you’d turn my way again

but I’m not waiting for you

I’ll live with these deep blues.

I’ll be on my own,

running from who I call home

and your blood-stained ropes.

A tight slammer, there’s no hope.

I find new faces

old souls accompany this place.

A source of comraderie

promising me company.

Renaissance of my youth,

a story that transcends time.

My delayed adulthood,

now beginning this life of mine.