Another year older
and yet still
none the wiser.
My age arrived alone again.
The new year.
Nine days in.
Twenty-six candles blown.
Still, nightmares soak my pillow.
My childhood bed
where I lay, it’s different.
Visions creep from the shadows.
A prepossessing face.
But there you are,
the same white car.
You led me down his path,
but I returned to your arms.
I’m not who I was before.
I recall the slam of his door.
I still have my tenacity,
but I’ve released my despondencies.
A lesson he’s taught me.
Black hair and blue eyes
exist in all I despise.
A bruise that doesn’t heal,
but someday it will.
The five friends I’ve made,
how I watched them fade.
But some still remain
as potential that’ll stay.
So tonight I’ll wish
for just one thing.
26-years passed in a blink.
Forever isn’t enough time with you.
And never would be cruel.
I tried to kill my darlings
as they cry, “Huzzah!”
But for as long as I’m breathing,
my muse, you’re alive in my heart.
So lover, stay here with me
the co-lead in my love story.
We’ll roll the pebbles stumbling
us along this road.
Bygones finally became bygones.
You never stayed gone.
You’re the only one.
It’s been you all along.
It’s been me standing strong.
